& no one will ever know

2009-08-01T13:08:00.003+08:00

MOVED.to a whimsical place of cuts&locks :)blanchedcrux.lj

the world on your table

2009-03-14T22:37:00.005+08:00

i feel like im just melting into some slump of shit now, dont know what im doing, dont want to face anything, and yet knowing perfectly well that i need to snap out of this, like now. the very fact that im actually blogging now is a perfect indication that im just running away from everything. according to my cts study plan, im supposed to be studying econs now, but God, it's so freaking boring

controversy, perspective

2009-01-04T22:58:00.006+08:00

hello (: it's 2009, yay ? anw as usual im lazy, so pictures :)first, we had an Ecubey sometime ago !! cc & yings bought me a long overdue cake, which they kinda toppled & squashed. hahah but anw, Ecubes are fun & laughter :) yay.okay, holidays were pretty much packed with chorale. carolling was tiring but quite fun i guess :) hahah apart from the burnout & all.5A finally had christmas party on

i've got the gift of one liners

2008-11-25T00:04:00.003+08:00

been having to face quite a few challenges recently & i really dont know if im capable of it. on one hand, it can make me happy yet the other side is just so, daunting. it makes me feel so meek, so helpless, that i wonder why of all people to have to go through all this, me ? in the things that i know what to do, the sense of pride, of anger is just too overwhelming that i really dont know how to

the rocks cry out your fame

2008-11-15T00:51:00.008+08:00

'tis been a long while !! now im seventeen :) yay. my seventeenth year didn't start off too good, but we all learn as we grow, so i'll take whatever i get la. anw im really really thankful for such awesome friends who stand by me through everything :] okay pictures from my birthday "celebrations" !! 5A&co gathering :] dinner earlier on with my family at inagiku :D& i swear TRC is the sweetest

keeping my sanity insanely alive

2008-10-14T00:37:00.002+08:00

hello hello :] class bbq on friday !! the guys spent it playing dota -.- hahaha but it was fun, as always !! went out on sunday !! ended up at minds cafe after bowling before pool. hahaha gan was trying to draw a crocodile with her eyes closed during pictionary, and junchang guessed komodo dragon HAHAHA.yay :] btw, post promo lectures feel like a total waste of time, sighxz.

reason & love keep little company together nowadays

2008-10-03T23:53:00.004+08:00

okay pics from last day of promos :D went to eat sushi buffet with gan & jong before meeting the rest for mamma mia & pool !! yay. hahaha anw we ate like 8 plates of ice cream puffs !! crazy, that's like 32 HAHAHA. went out shopping with gan on tuesday !! yay. haven't shopped in forever, my heels were killing meeee. wednesday was awesome !! class & co decided to go back to school since it'd be

childhood is the kingdom where nobody dies

2008-09-28T22:57:00.015+08:00

pictureful post :] yay ! hahah long overdue, mostly of mugging in school with the most awesome bunch of people !! hahah hokay, enough said : Dnational day celebrations :] surprising yings on her birthday :Dokay, so mugging was pretty much as below ! hahahah, sleeping ! :D lunch trips to longhousedinner trip to kovan :D camping outside dining hall for pw :D uhhh, guess who ?paper planes !! go

with you, forever's no more a lie :]

2008-09-13T21:55:00.001+08:00

TRC <3

now waking up is hard to do,

2008-09-12T00:33:00.003+08:00

i cried for the first time in ages that day, but then i realised that, as liberating as it may have felt, it was pointless. exams, stress, fears, insecurities, guilt, all sums up to life. but i'll stay strong, for my friends, my family, for myself :]sleeping's impossible too.

my amour was cracked

2008-09-01T22:21:00.003+08:00

yo ho yo ho a pirate's life for meee. i wore vj tie !! hahaha anw i missed trc in good ol' stnicks. jc = complicated & tiring. mugging late in school everyday, and my mum says i need to stop treating my house like a hotel sighxz. the germs have conquered me yoxz, i hate being sick, and i hate this & that & you & him & her & ...?

& you're the reoccuring kind, cause you are always on my mind

2008-08-27T16:16:00.002+08:00

Hey love ! Thank you so much for the board, its so sweeeeet ! I'm so going to bring it there so I'll get to stare at you everyday hahahahha. You better take good care of yourself and remember, Promos come first !! See you in December & if I can manage to learn how to snail mail stuff to Sg before your birthday, you'll probably get a UK imported Birthday card ! How cool is that manzxzxz. Kkkxzxz,

to love you is taboo

2008-08-17T23:55:00.004+08:00

went to help senghenk model his dress on saturday morning. seriously not my thing hahaha. i really look like a bird. a really weird one :\ oh well hahaha.having prac everyday but thursday & sunday yo. life will be full of notes tutorials assignments tests & scores, yay ?loveee <3

nice to know we had it all

2008-08-11T22:14:00.008+08:00

konichiwa :D hahah 'tis been a long week. pw, staying in school till 9, rushing pw, ri choir concert, doing pw, national day celebrations, go out go out go out :] okay anw, pics from concert ! met the clicky (yay :D) on saturday to celebrate my girlfriend's birthday & watch fireworks ! got her a pretty personalised balloon, seventeen (+2 extra haha) donuts, a tiara & a super special trophy !!

delving into the unexplainable

2008-07-19T22:06:00.005+08:00

Vocal Delights ytd ! tiring, embarrassing (to the max) but fun nonetheless. had the greatest friends watching, supporting (& laughing) hahah. anyhow peeeeekchers ! extremely. tired. need to sleep. need to stop being so selfish.

maybe we're trying, trying too hard

2008-07-13T00:45:00.002+08:00

& what makes you think im not trying ?life's so fucking tough.and you, silms ou ysi lt.

one little thing could take it all away

2008-07-06T22:40:00.002+08:00

(attempted) tanning at sentosa with 3R ytd !!! but the sun was being annoying and went to hide after a super short while. drifted in vivo for quite a bit before jing & i left. ooo took a picture with the really cute timezone mascot too !! heehee. sigh i miss 3R like crazy :(junchang came over to do history today. hahah went to chompchomp after that and i ran into nat !!! haven't seen her in

somehow you remain, locked so deep inside

2008-07-02T22:14:00.003+08:00

everytime i feel upset, i'd force myself to think of the people who deserve to be so much more upset than i am. at least i know i have amazing friends who i can always fall back on, a home to come back to & a God to put all my trust and faith in. that's enough, it should be.minutes turn to hours, & the hours to days,seems it's been forever that i've felt this waywonder if you know how much i miss

got a picture of you i kept in my heart

2008-06-29T01:10:00.014+08:00

alohaaa ! i havent blogged in a long while, i know hahaha. the june hols were barely holidays, with poland & camp & the last minute studying :\ cts were really disgusting, maybe like SUUU, since history is so hard to fail hahah. anyhow since it's 1.20 in the morning i shall minimise my words hahahah.trip was okay, super duper extremely tiring. omg i wanted to die, but we got a Best 20th Century

it's now or never

2008-05-23T20:11:00.004+08:00

leaving for poland in four days !! Extremely Exhilarating :] 96 hours from now, i'll be at the airport !! even though i cant really bear to leave. sighxz. hahaha omg term 2 is over, how fast. term 2 was great, despite the little gloomy days here & there. was talking to kenneth this morning & i realised how much i miss class camp, complete with the jetty, the water & of course the people heehee.

it's just a temporary thing

2008-05-12T21:16:00.007+08:00

i was planning to come online to blog about concert & finish up history and econs, but im really not in the mood to do so now.i guess it's scary how fragile life is. every once in a while, life has it's way of reminding you to treasure everything that you have, & i guess it never really makes an impact on us until things get a little too serious. so here i am, on one hand getting reminded to

my heart is torn just in knowing

2008-05-02T22:03:00.003+08:00

im really torn, i have no idea what i should do & the deadline is rapidly approaching. sigh and of all times, the people i need to talk to are not around :( howwwww.concert in 4 days, quite exciting !! at least i'll get to see half of the clicky :] but i think the 11hour pracs are starting to get to me, my voice was gradually diminishing ytd alr sighxz.im feeling quite bad, im really sorry if im

i rhyme all the time :]

2008-04-24T23:43:00.004+08:00

i love studying. studying is my passion. i find joy in doing maths & immense satisfaction in history. it just thrills me to know all these facts, they all just seem so nifty !i love eating. eating is my life. just the simple sound of muching and crunching, is enough to make me skive :]i love sleeping, it makes me feel so happy. i'd give up almost anything just for a little nappy ! (HAHAHAH)i

im on the way down

2008-04-19T21:53:00.002+08:00

i've been really happily enjoying life for the past few weeks until the past few days, especially today. today is such a fucked up day.we found out the people who cant go for the poland trip today, the atmosphere was seriously shit. i feel damn bad for the people who got kicked out, no idea how to face them & all. others were crying for differing reasons, but all in all, it sucked. jing flew off

it's time for show & tell

2008-04-02T21:09:00.003+08:00

i just got back from class camp a few days ago at faraway island of palau sibu ! hahah it was omg awesome :] im really lazy to go into details, but we did lots of stuff like snorkling, kayaking (with jong teeheehee), human pyramids in the water, see fireflies, catch crabs & so on. but our Deep & Meaningful was great :] anyhow i love 09S05A ! they're such great people. oh, 5A has macho guys !!

i bet on my life for you

2008-03-11T17:15:00.006+08:00

my attempt to tan with holey ytd was pathetic :( stupid rain. so we just spent our day playing frisbee & bitching :] hahaha okay no, more like catching up. met cinch charm & becks later on for leap years. omg sweet & touching to the max ! it's like the first time i cried in a cinema HAHAHA. i miss bus rides home at night with cinch, the good ol' TAS days. holidays are so short :( not enough

dont tell me it's not worth fighting for

2008-03-06T17:33:00.004+08:00

i wasn't planning to blog but i had to be efficient & upload the clicky pics from charm's birthday. wild goose chases around sembawang + purple helium balloons + huge tigger + oreo cheesecake + alot of food + clicky - jingjing = charm's surprise seventeenth party :]btw, here's a sneak peek to what we do during pw lessons with mr steffen toh, heeheehee.rj's making me feel fat ! we keep eating in

and in a whirlwind you're swept away

2008-03-03T21:59:00.002+08:00

im supposed to be doing history, plus i have econs & physics to do. but im here, how immensely gratifying. life's been fine, i like my class :] apart from the fact that i feel very lost in practically every subj. and to think i even ponned maths makeup lecture today, and im ponning physics on wednesday oops. hahah i. seriously. need. to. catch. up.rj is screwing up my plans man. im missing fiesta

I will never let you fallI'll stand up with you forever

2008-02-23T02:22:00.003+08:00

There are going to be times in your life when all you wanna do is lay down in the middle of the road during rush hour. Just know that no matter how many times you feel like laying there, I will always be there to block the traffic Y Hey there Sunshine. I think I'll never ever get tired of leaving random messages on your blog. Which means ! You can never change your username and password hahahah :

and the sorrow that you know will melt away

2008-02-21T21:14:00.002+08:00

orientation in nj was okay i guess, made some nice friends and all but i guess it really isn't my kind of school. but OG1 is still great anyway :]so, one day of orientation & a second change of schools. im rather scared now, going into a school where everyone has been through orientation alr & most of them have like a million friends alr. plus, they're all so smart :( and im so uncertain about my

you drive away, from my car crash of a heart.

2008-02-17T22:07:00.003+08:00

i wasn't planning to blog but i decided i should before school starts & eats up all my time hahah. went for auditions on wednesday & totally screwed it up by singing happy birthday wrongly. i mean, which sane person sings happy birthday wrongly la ! butttt, i got the call ytd so it's okay heeheehee. vday with the clique was awesome, it felt great seeing them after quite a while. but i still miss

Flowery Feathery Fancies

2008-02-10T21:56:00.000+08:00

kcheena new year wasn't too bad i must say. apart from the fact that im sick & lethargic with no energy to do anything now :( okay im going to be a systematic girl. yay.wednesday was romey's nifty nineteenth ! woke him up at 12 to sing song, haha we're super nice to him man. went out for supper cause i fasted on tuesday !! im so holy i know hahah. anw went back to stnics ! hole & manda didn't

some say love, it is a razorthat leaves your soul to bleed

2008-02-03T21:48:00.000+08:00

life's been really boring ): and meaningless. boo i cant wait to go back to school :( whichever one i'll actually get into. shopped on wednesday, thursday, friday & saturday. i am broke. but anyhow, i like tennis lessons on saturday with my KXJM :] it's probably one of the few things i look forward to every week !saw more than half of trc today :] yay. manda & charm in the afternoon, then cinch &

it will always be yours.

2008-01-28T21:52:00.000+08:00

i promised to blog today :]ytd, i kept getting pangsehed !! it was so annoying :( but nevermind, spent the day doing the usual stuff with the usual people :] yay. except that i went to VS to watch them play soccer. uh actually i was staring at pig's DS screen most of the time, but nevermind hahah.i met my macho girlfriend today !! heehee went to rj to meet her, then watched 27 dresses at amk ! it

love drowns the tender reed

2008-01-26T00:36:00.000+08:00

life is unpredictable, truely.i went through multiple hours in a state of neuroticism which started a little too early i guess. kept vigil the whole of thursday night talking to my ultimate & doing a jigsaw puzzle for qiqi :] it's been a long time since i've left the house so early, i just realised how much i miss it. family & line dance on the track followed by badminton & frisbee with hole &

2008-01-22T16:45:00.001+08:00

"Life ain't always beautiful. Sometimes it's just plain hard. Life can knock you down, it can break your heart. But the struggles make you stronger and the changes make you wise, and happiness has its own way of taking its sweet time. No, life ain't always beautiful. But I know you'll be fine. Hey, life ain't always beautiful, but it's a beautiful ride. " Love you many many louloulou :] Stay

please don't ask me what i like about you

2008-01-19T00:08:00.000+08:00

this is L, 6th May 2007. this is the other L, 13th December 2007. can you spot the similarity ?! hahah it's not hard to tell why we're such good friends :)

2008-01-18T00:45:00.000+08:00

my day has just been made great cos im talking to both lingjing & chloe online. omg staying up is totally worth it !! omg im so amused now hahah i think i dont make sense YAY okay byebye :)[edit] okay, it's like 2am now !! and chloe went off cos she has prep & jing's doing, uh chem. hahah i think my life is so meaningless these days. like thinking of how i should spend my time is a chore, i used

in a restless world,

2008-01-15T22:24:00.000+08:00

i think im suffering from some sort of weird syndrome that keeps making me hear my phone vibrating. maybe it's like withdrawal symptoms after not seeing & talking to jingjing for so long ): hahah anyway life has been rather boring.charm yings & i crashed rj today, went to find diana :] havent seen my macho in like forever ! saw quite alot of people. hahah but we looked very out of place, not

V is Very Very extraordinary

2008-01-12T12:00:00.000+08:00

going back to st nicks on thursday was great. i really miss everything about it ! oh i cut my hair in the morning ! now it's super thin and icky. i feel bald hahah. anyway finally got to eat orange bowl :) when everything was done, qiqi jing & i had small dragon buns & yami yoghurt :) yay hahah.jingjing left ytd :( qiqi & i went to her place early in the morning to wake her up ! then slacked till

dont look too hard

2008-01-09T23:10:00.000+08:00

i want to lose 1.5kg ! so that i'll be 40000000kg and i'll break a bed every night :) okay no. but anyway my plan to eat alot at dinner so that i'll be full and wont eat anymore failed ! like so miserably ): booooo. not happy.chloe's not replying my msgs & emails. uh okay i just sent the email like 3minutes ago hahaha. aiya, she better reply soon, if not i'll buy a plane ticket & fly there !miss

cause you've brought me so much sunshine

2008-01-06T21:03:00.000+08:00

jing's farewell party today ! left session early to go get supplies with cinch & once again, people kept coming up to me to ask for balloons, when i paid for them, pffft. after moving everything to my other house, i ran down to gardens, supposedly "from session" hahah to meet jing ! & then forced myself to eat cartel to stall time. anyway jing was so slowwww. she didn't suspect anything even when

now it's time we bade farewell

2008-01-05T22:24:00.000+08:00

i hate goodbyes. thursday morning, my korkor left for melbourne, yet again.ytd was spent with charm, then i rushed to chloe's to run up her third avenue mountain for the last time (for the next few months at least). went to the airport, where everyone was highly emotional, with the exceptions of soo the banana & her anticlimax moments. there was loads of tears & hugs & all, and now chloe's far

i miss you so,

2008-01-02T22:37:00.000+08:00

happy new year people :]spent new years eve at jing's ! my mummy was in a good mood so i got to stayover legally hahah. jumped into the pool at midnight, and played games and swam until like 3plus ?! im surprised i didn't freeze or drown to death in her 3m deep pool ! hahah but as always, time spent with TRC passes so quickly, with the games & dotting fingers and toes and indoor badminton hahah.

it's our little secret

2007-12-31T00:11:00.000+08:00

happy new year's eve (:the world has been rather fast moving lately, my parents have been awkwardly unfriendly. maybe it's cos they're just preoccupied with my brothers being back hahah, not that i mind though :]alot of people have been talking to me about my future & i have to admit that im quite apprehensive to answer when they ask "so what school are you going to next year ?", cos when i told

& a happy new yearrrrrrr !

2007-12-28T22:06:00.000+08:00

:) christmas is over ! hahah stayed out the whole of chrissy eve, only reached home at 8 on christmas morning. my attempt to lie to the parents failed rather terribly but whatever. very soon my friends wont have anymore time for meeeee ): stupid jc. and then ! my jingjing will be off to UK on the 11th & i'll have no more friends ! rah.mmm been spending quite alot of time at the park recently :)

christmas bells are ringinggggg !

2007-12-22T14:09:00.000+08:00

went to watch ceecee sing at raffles hotel ytd. waited for damn long, but vj choir was so good !!! kind of makes me miss choir :( hahah qiqi & i met a person called biscuit. okay we are easily amused. went to raffles city after that & stoned at mos while waiting for ceecee who took, uh forever, as usual :] hahah. i swear mos is our favourite Ecube place ! hoho i like corn soup. snapple provides

2007-12-19T23:23:00.001+08:00

okay i swear i have never ever blogged three times in a day. but aunty marina just passed away, of all times. it really makes me feel that life is somehow so unfeeling. wonder if the wedding will still go on on saturday. suddenly my christmas doesn't seem to bright anymore. life's going to be missing something without her. anyhow, i take comfort in knowing that she's now in heaven with God.

change happens & happenings change

2007-12-19T21:37:00.000+08:00

INTRODUCING, MY BROTHER THE ARMY BOYBOY :] okay fine, so im not as tall as them. in fact im only to their freaking shoulders. that's why they're my BIG korkors ! hahah i think im nuts. oh romey's face looks fatter with his crew cut & nerdy specs ! now he really looks like an army boy hahah good night ! :]

we live by faith & not by sight

2007-12-19T14:38:00.000+08:00

tomato potato avocado ! hahahah.it's funny how i always learn of the most depressing things when im alone & bored & have nothing better to do. i guess it was stupid to think that i would have been able to completely forget in a day. haha maybe a week or two's more reasonable. but anyhow, christmas will still be great.p6 gathering was fun, eating like mad & making hell lot of noise at icecube,

none but jesus

2007-12-18T18:16:00.000+08:00

shit i think should go back to camp so that i'll stop eating so much ! this is annoying. very soon im going to become the kongbakpao alr :( hahahah.im staying home tmr to pack my room, cos im moving upstairs yay !!! it signifies me becoming the oldest MOST MATURE of the kids in the house hahah. i was about to write oldest when i remembered cambodia is older than me, yuck. hahah.i keep making new

my God is mighty to save

2007-12-17T15:18:00.000+08:00

im back from church camp ! so tired. still had to wake up to teach this morning :( anyway camp was fun :] in its own way i guess. felt quite miserable at times for worthless reasons & somehow i felt that the camp wasn't as fulfilling as those before, but that's my fault la, cos i think i wasn't focused at all. but at least i got stuff out of it ! okay so all in all, i made new friends ( hip hip

i didn't think you'd feel so far away

2007-12-11T22:25:00.000+08:00

the past few days have more or less been shitty & annoying.the parents started scolding and complaining since they stepped into the freaking house. like seriously, i wish they'd stay longer in cambodia.i was really cranky ytd, cos i woke up early to go to sengkang & take the lrt for the first time in my life. and thanks to my sheer stupidity, i tapped out cos it didn't occur to me that the lrt

as it all disintegrates before me

2007-12-09T13:51:00.000+08:00

i miss my romey ! :( he didn't seem too happy there when i spoke to him. RAH as much i anticipated it, not having any of my korkors around sucks like :!@#$%">!@#$%^&*()_+= i.cant.wait.for.romey.to.come.back. :((((((((((((((oh well, woke up early to go the the airport to send charm & becks off at the budget terminal. cinch overslept so we were late oops. anyway went to popeyes to eat & some weird

someday this life of uncertainty shall cease

2007-12-05T22:51:00.000+08:00

hello hello, new url yay :] it's supposed to be kvetch by the way, if you dont know what it means go to dictionary.com and find out alright ! improve your vocab hahah.the rain today totally spoilt my plans ! was either supposed to go catch a movie with calista / heroes marathon with trc / meet chloe BUT in the end, i just stayed at home and ate like a mad pig while staring at the window waiting

we'll go on forever, it's a promise

2007-12-04T15:11:00.000+08:00

i like having parties with trc :] makes me happy but fat. ethnic party was super fun & filling. hahah i like playing twister, but the pics are way too unglam. oh well, cant wait for christmas party & countdown party !! oh my parents are gone & i have this strong urge to slaughter cambodia who is currently lying on my parents' bed, using their pillows and bolsters and talking on the phone. anyone

save the cheerleader, save the world

2007-11-30T22:39:00.000+08:00

hello, i just watched 9episodes of heroes at jing's today :] love it ! even though i watched most of it alr. ate like pigs, nothing new. we shall continue soon yay. ytd was super fun but tiring. went to my mum's office, then to bugis with chloeee. dropped by nafa for a little, then shopped ! okay she shopped, i window shopped :( hahaha then to amk to meet yings & ceecee to buy food for our picnic

happily ever after doesn't exist

2007-11-27T20:25:00.000+08:00

in the room :] 3R 3R & our manicures :] HAHA we were having a fight under the table TRC, the greatest ! tingxzxz ! skimps ! JINGJING ! <3> chloeeeee :]QIQI ! proms over yay. i swear i looked like a prostitute / opera singer so i refuse to upload all my pics into an album :( wth, the stupid person like put super thick makeup. oh well, prom was fine i guess, choir item sucked & we just spent

that's when i love you, i love you anyway

2007-11-23T22:44:00.000+08:00

im tired, like really x 21687489741346 :( been having insomnia every night & it sucks ! & having to wake up early isn't making it much better. but i like spending time with my friends, staying at home & facing the bitch is so unpalatable.lazed around the whole monday afternoon & my dearest diana called at 6plus, "let's go out let's go out !" hahah so went out to shop when most shops were closing

when you walk with two left feet

2007-11-20T22:44:00.000+08:00

ONE. get out of my house bitch, pleaseeeeeeeTWO. someone tell me that not applying for pae is the right thing to do ?THREE. im going to sleep without aircon tonight, environmentally friendly lou !FOUR. i like going out with jingjing, she makes me happyFIVE. qiqi & i are going to punch that bitch once the parents leave the small town of sgpSIX. i like food, drowning my frustrations in them are so

& we never ran out of things to say now

2007-11-14T18:46:00.000+08:00

i didn't manage to go for the tp openhouse thing, feel quite bad hahah. but ! my fever suddenly shot up last night :( RAH i hate falling sick. went out with TRC ytd :D waited in fam lounge with soo for the bio people to come out ! then went down to see choir. oh & i realised that trc digresses like crazy, like we start off at a topic and we just link to anything under the sun ! we are weird

as long as i know how to love i know i'll be alive :]

2007-11-12T20:42:00.000+08:00

MG'S AREVER !!!!okay hahah o's are over ! no more studying sessions and camwhoring in school, which is quite upsetting you know !AND ! my room is going to look different now :D the walls & cupboard doors are kind of full and annoyingly filled with ss & chem & whatnot. but very soon, they will all be nice & clean & rid of all worthless things. plus my super messy & filled table is going to be neat

never knew, you were so perfect

2007-11-07T23:22:00.000+08:00

hahah my sixteen was unexpectedly sweet :] maybe i should have known how great my friends are ! hahah.0611200701 i got a new camera & ipod from daddy & mummy respectively ! my dad hid the camera under the blanket, so retarded hahah.02 ceecee's calls in the morning saying "im standing outside your house now, i bought breakfast for you"03 chloe comes, we eat like crazy & i get a thin slice of cake

A tear blossomed in my eye

2007-10-31T21:57:00.000+08:00

BLOG INVASION ALERT :]That. Is such a random photo I know but we look cute :) Hahaha I'm bored so I'm here to blog for you ! Emaths paper one was EEEEYERRRR. But paper two was quite alright. I BET YOU DID CUMALATIVE. If my emaths can get A2 right YOU BETTER TREAT ME TO HAATO :D Anyway, studying sessions with you have been productive and awesome to the max, compounded with love and total coolness

captured in a realm surreal nothings

2007-10-20T15:52:00.000+08:00

o's in two days, how freaking exciting. i am not ready at all, and now i cant even get into my access course for nafa, which only serves to make me feel worse.thursday was fun, spent the entireee day in school with most of trc & ceecee came down, YAY :] with my last letter, and seven donuts ! my hair sucks when im studying. hahahah.ate like the whole day ytd :( went to chienjie's place after

keep your rules for yourself

2007-10-15T22:35:00.000+08:00

you know what, why dont you just pretend you never had me and go enjoy all of cambodia's sucking up & listening to every single word of shit that you say. i hate what you're doing to me & all that biasness that is going on inside this house. so fuck you and go away.

we've reached our point of goodbye

2007-10-12T21:49:00.000+08:00

okay so ! last day in st nics today yo. nostalgia's starting to kick in. okay no, im kidding, it doesn't exactly feel like the last day of sec school (im not even legal & never will be cos lou's forever young ! hahahah) but i know i'll come to miss sn and everything in it and not forgetting everything that has come out of it :] hooray for sn. TRC i'll probably miss them most.prelim results today,

standstill

2007-09-30T22:19:00.000+08:00

"these violent delights have violent ends, and in their triumph die, like fire and powder, which, as they kiss, consume"romeo and juliet, act II scene VIim dead tired. i was out of the house by 9, studied, reached home at 9. i swear studying tires me out. by 4+ i couldn't even comprehend a single thing. i think shaun almost died trying to explain the stupid maths question. hahahah too bad.prelims

maybe someday, i'll realise

2007-09-25T15:38:00.000+08:00

hahaha it's been really hard & bad, people have changed & are still changing but thank God for friends like jingjing :] cute or what ! hahah family outings to haato to make it feel like the weekend and a hug & mochi from my korkor are also helping me to get through, hooray.and boo to the unveiling of the depressing prelim results which begins tmr :(

three cheers for misery

2007-09-07T21:01:00.000+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I HATE STUDYING !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!okay so whatever about not blogging, i just needed to destress a little. but i really hate studying, it drains the freaking soul of out perfectly fine people. if you'd ask me, studying 8chapters of chem a day & going for 4hours of maths tuition & studying till 3+ every night &

i need a break from my fake world fantasy

2007-08-30T19:51:00.000+08:00

celebrated emain's real birthday ytd :] with her actual cake. she was supposed to be disappointed with saturday's cheapo sponge okay ! hahah but anyway, we had fun yay :] okay this was us on saturday hahaha.prelims have started and my first day didn't go well. by the way, from monday onwards, i'll kiss goodbye to my computer (& online shopping !) and indulge myself in the fantasies of studying &

we're nearing the end of happiness

2007-08-27T22:36:00.000+08:00

okay first things first. hole's birthday celebration pics ! yup so anyway, celebrated emain's on saturday at seoul garden, walked around town with carrying cards saying "HAPPY BIRTHDAY EMAIN : )" hahah she was highly embarrassed. but she still loves trc very very much ! of course :] oh got my new phone too hahah. yup sunday had three rocks surprise celebration for yings at her place ! with the

i still prefer novelty.

2007-08-18T10:36:00.000+08:00

there's no one word to describe this week. it's more like a mixture of everything.oral on monday was like sucky. i dont even know what i was talking about but i guess my examiners were nice enough :)wednesday was such a terrible day. i swear i have never ever felt this upset / disappointed /confused / worried / dilemma-ed / scared / everything bad before. and yet, i have never cried so hard in my

basically, i love you

2007-08-12T20:59:00.000+08:00

wednesday was :D :D :D :D :D :D :D celebrations were, hahahah i think i was being over enthusiastic ! but nevermind. oh & i called this person a bitch cos she told me to shut up :I retarded. anyway it was darling holey's sweet sixteen ! so we took a clicky picture, BUT dearest becks ponned school so it's 7/8 of TRC. then went to town with cinch & becks to shop abit, met yings to catch rush hour 3

bang bang, you're dead.

2007-08-05T21:36:00.000+08:00

Ecubeys are ultimate LOVE ! spent my entire weekend with EmoClub. which totals up to, a whole lot of rubbish, pizza hut, pictures (finally), new looks, alot of noise, the rest of the world in for a surprise tmr & me being really happy :] hahaha i miss my _____ alr ! but it's okay. oh did i mention that the stupid weighing machine in school made me 2kg heavier ! omg i swear i almost killed myself.

you're just but a memory waiting to dissolve

2007-07-27T21:22:00.000+08:00

"do you want me to watch this alone ?""no, i'll mostly be watching you anyway."AHHHHHHH super sweet right, okay sorry im just suffering from twilight & new moon fever here. although im currently quite annoyed cos EDWARD IS GONE. but he'll be back :] i feel like jing posting quotes to start my post, sigh influence la, good or bad ? uh i dno hahahah.prelim oral ytd was _____, i dno. it feels

everywhere i see superficial plastered on,

2007-07-22T18:50:00.000+08:00

i feel nostalgic, somehow i really miss last year & all the people. oh well, shan't be an emokid.one thought of you is all it takes to leave the rest of the world behindthanks for everything dear, you know sometimes i really cant do without you (i know you know :I hahah) yup, i love you. oh & if you fall into the sea, i'll definitely save you first hahah.zhuan ah zhaun jiu zhen de yu jian mr

there's just one heart where there once was two

2007-07-13T23:54:00.000+08:00

yay i've survived week 3 ! hooray. my first night study was, hahah, quite a bad experience, thanks to my first ever (& last) $1.50 orange bowl. oh not to mention, i'll probably fail physics, amaths, emaths, geography & basically everything la huh. okay no, i need to be optimistic ! optimints for the optimistic girl.finally going shopping tmr (: for vocal scores first then to lime flea ! yay. i

2007-07-09T22:55:00.001+08:00

i guess i never really realised how fragile life is, or rather never bothered. after all, i'm barely sixteen, i wont die so soon ! yeah right, i might be lying in the hospital tmr for all i know. sigh it's been a bad week, or weekend more like ? so many things happened. i think the worst is how my mum's birthday was a total disaster for her ): fancy getting accused of cheating someone's money.i

since your paper heart stopped beating leaving me suddenly alone

2007-07-03T19:03:00.000+08:00

i wonder why im even online & blogging when it's hell week & i should be studying ! 2 tests down, seven more to go :l i think the school screws people up, everything's just so disturbing nowadays. oh well, i like school though, at least i get to see the people i love :]suddenly im wondering if coming online was the right thing to do or not, cos only you are capable of making me so happy & yet so

hey, i know we've changed

2007-06-23T22:40:00.001+08:00

im not that girl - wickedhands touch, eyes meetsudden silence, sudden heathearts leapt in a giddy whirlhe could be that boybut im not that girldont dream too fardont lose sight of who you aredont remember that rush of joyhe could be that boybut im not that girlevery so often we long to stealto the land of what might have beenbut that doesn't soften the ache we feelwhen reality sets back inblithe

2007-06-18T22:46:00.000+08:00

ask me why i am so bored.

it's time to say it, goodbye, goodbye.

2007-06-17T22:57:00.000+08:00

okay im tired, went for charm & becks' confirmation today. but first, farewell !farewell was fine, i liked the egg in the flour game ! so funny. i think im born to be a pig, i like messy games oops hahah. yup then the presentations & all were okay, didn't feel like farewell at all though ): sucksss. i cant believe my journey in choir is over, rah. okay nvm i'll post pics ! BIG FOUR ! THREE ROCKS,

& im standing here waiting for your reply which i somehow know will never come

2007-06-14T11:15:00.000+08:00

im supposed to be at leelingjing's house being efficient & doing farewell presents now, but she's sleeping & im really lazy ! i shall leave soon. mm okay farewell's tmr, im like excited & yet scared. i just realised how fast time passes, it seems such a short while ago since we were the ones running around & getting all stressed up over farewell & syf & getting our GwH. rah my life will

an unforgettable journey or tears, anxiety, satisfaction of joy

2007-06-08T22:48:00.000+08:00

step down was ytd, cant help but feel a little gush of relief, yet at the same time im so reluctant to let all of this go & face reality that my 3 and a half years in sn choir have offcially ended. not going down to chopin & facing the friends is going to need a little adapting to, but even when i do, i know i'll still miss it so much.okay on a lighter note, congrats to the new comm ! :] hooray &

your heart's probably stronger than you think it is

2007-06-03T21:31:00.000+08:00

im so exhausted, i feel like an exhaust pipe HAHAHAHAH okay im talking rubbish. yings & i studied today, i was very productive yay. or at least more productive than usual (: hahah hip hip hooray. im really really tired, i have no idea why. oh actually i'll credit it to my bouts of insomnia, thank you very much.everything's just different now, so complicated & all. okay, i guess God's testing me

hey, you know i loved you ?

2007-05-31T21:20:00.000+08:00

i wish that i had the basic freedom and rights to choose what time i wish to sleep and wake up, and maybe, what i wish to do with my life after o's ? thanks for depriving me of that, you'll never know, someday, i might be influenced to listen to your every word, but for now, keep wishing.she's pretty, he's sweetthey're a match made in heaventhe pain's worse than slashing myself a million timeswe

i wish it'd would stop

2007-05-27T23:58:00.000+08:00

hahah this week has been quite an emo week, but friday - sunday were great (: better i guess.POTC III with 3R on friday ! im lazy to type so, this is from yings' blog.OH! And despite the fact that Lou & I told Lingjing about a week ago that we wanted to watch Pirates yesterday, the fact that we bought tickets together for the show, the fact that all the digital displays outside the theatres were

<33333333333333333 >

2007-05-21T23:10:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CEECEE !i'll make it short & sweet. you're my favourite senior & will always be. even if everyone hates you i'll still love you the most. you're the best ever ! WO AI SI NI LEp.s. congrats, i have faith in you ! (:p.p.s. i really cant wait for sunday (:

abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz

2007-05-21T22:46:00.000+08:00

i wish i was back to kindergarten and learning my abc's once more, then i wouldn't be here moating over stupid things that i should not even be upset about ! omg i feel so immature now.[edit] I HATE THIS ! [/edit]

and what makes you think you're not make believe.

2007-05-13T22:14:00.000+08:00

okay so, it's all over. Jubilate IV is my last concert with snchoir & my last time, rushing for makeup, checking everyone's choir uniform etc. stressful as it is, i'll miss it. i'll miss snchoir & everything that comes with it, esp miss lim.okay so we didn't do well, miss lim was highly disappointed, and i guess that made us (the leaders) feel, sort of, incapable. i cant deny we didn't handle

it's plain & simple, no fancy no frills.

2007-05-08T22:15:00.000+08:00

cant you see, i've had enough of all this in your male dominated fantasy. i hate living in this environment when i have to give into you, even when i dont do anything wrong. i hate it that you get to scream and yell at me at your pleasure & take everything out on everyone around you. i hate all this, but i have to live with it. i have to learn to.The important thing is not to be bitter over

the singing will never be done

2007-04-25T12:24:00.000+08:00

SN CHOIR :GOLD WITH HONOURS ! we finally got it omg. Eight Months of hard work & effort & tears for that Ten Minutes on stage ! now everything seems worth it, all the scoldings, the drilling, everything ! i swear i wouldn't mind getting scolded a million more times. because that overwhelming feeling of satisfaction & achievement & of course the joy & happiness that i felt when the announcer went

twenty & counting

2007-04-04T21:29:00.000+08:00

okay so i havent been blogging, sec4 is so busy & stressful. okay i have a few things to declare.1. i think i've been very easily irritable recently. sorry people, i have no idea if it's due to the stress or like some hormonal imbalance (HAHA) or something. i think most of the time im more irritated with myself la. but i hope this will go away soon, i really do.2. some people in class, are just

futile attempts to call your name

2007-03-12T01:04:00.000+08:00

okay i think it's kind of an unearthly hour to be blogging (it's 0105am) but im wide awake and yings asked me to blog. so anyway it's the end of term one and yet im still slacking and despite my horrible results, i cant find any motivation to study. i feel like killing myself. but anyway ntu concert was great, despite the little things here & there, we did well in the end. and workshop on

yo sexy, call me miss bitchfit

2007-03-04T21:45:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHARM !hello dear, i hope you enjoyed today okay (: and yesterday hahah. you are a pretty and rocking girl, we will work hard tog this year k ! jiayou charm, we can do it ! ai si ni le !i love charm ! and it's her sweet sixteen today :D um okay so charm hole becks & i went out last night, to changing appetites for dinner ! (: it was really fun, with all the swim swam swum (haha

pulled from the wreckage of your silent reverie

2007-02-27T18:11:00.000+08:00

somehow, i think the eye infection is really getting to my brain.i really really really really really really really cant wait for this week to be over and the weekend to come. hurry up pleaseeeeeee ):

if i was happy, pigs could fly

2007-02-18T14:44:00.000+08:00

hello hello ! happy (chinese) new year world ! cc & i are sharing this year, so happy cc & lou year too ! hahah, if you are that retarded, it's the pig year, so cc & i are pigs -__-anyway celebrations in school were ew. charm & i didn't even get to sit on the specs stand, instead i was on a dirty canvas sheet on the field. plus, it was really boring, mass was like nothing cos we couldn't hear a

faith is my salvation

2007-02-10T22:16:00.000+08:00

okay so got chinese olevel results ytd, must say i am rather disappointed. it's hard not to be when you are like one of the few in class who didn't get a 1, but it's okay, i'll bounce back ! i shall strive to be like ceecee ( i cant believe im saying this ), haha but that stupid girl is so smart pls, she can go be a nerd. but anyway after i while i realised that i should be thankful actually, cos

& you're only almost here

2007-02-06T12:47:00.000+08:00

okay so i realised that my last post was super emo hahah. but i've really been quite ))))): recently. the many many contributing factors hahah. okay, i shall be very systematic & organised today (:1. lou is officially down with gastric flu yet againyup, the horrible torture, gastric spasms etcetc. i have two days mc (ytd & today) which probably explains why im blogging now (1254pm), and why i